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Desires and Fear

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Desires and Fear

When one begins a new endeavor there is a passion, an energy, a calling. However, within a few weeks another feeling come into play… Fear. A few fears are that someone will criticize, that you may fail, or that people will turn against you. The fear that I battle with every day is the fear of succeeding – growing away from the friends that I have and them resenting me, having new responsibilities when I’m finally understanding and feeling comfortable with the ones I have, and feeling isolated.

The rational part of my brain is looking at these reasons and worked through them – many of my friends are struggling, so I either need to set a successful example or I need a new set of people to associate with. I enjoy challenges and when I work for someone else I relish in giving myself new responsibilities. And I am around people for half of the day who enjoy my company and me just for being me – these are the swim parents, PTSA moms and music parents.

I desire to change the world and have my name be known… not so much me but my name. I want to help the next generation to be aware of better ways to live their lives and reach their dreams. I want to inspire people to LIVE BIG! I want to be known as the person who enjoys helping people and makes a positive difference in others lives. I want to be known as the person who gives others an honest opportunity and works with them to succeed. I want to be know as the person who builds large royalty incomes for non profit organizations while helping health professionals, veterinarians, business owners, entrepreneurs, financial planners, and budding artists earn a secondary income while enhancing their current occupations.

What are your desires? What are the fears that stop you from moving towards those desires? May I help?

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Are you answering your question?

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Are you answering your question?

I know I was raised to get a good education, get a good paying job and I will be happy. I found this not to be true.

I got a bachelor in business and a master in IT. Most of the time I had to dumb down my resume to even be considered for a position, then when I got the job I out grew it within months. My mind was different than most of my coworkers. I learned what I had to do, then I would look at how the system worked. My way of thinking is make the system as effective and efficient as possible. This didn’t go over well most of the time. Many supervisors thought I was trying to take their position… furthest thing from my mind. Also when I lost the feeling of accomplishment or saw that they preferred to be redundant and obsolete I had to leave.

I need to feel like I am making a difference in other people’s lives. My favorite position to date was when I went door to door as “acquisitions” and customer service for a telecommunication company. Their new service was becoming available in small pockets of the county. I was the person to introduce customers to the new product and make sure they were satisfied with what they currently had. I loved training my co-workers, meeting people at their homes, and helping them save money after looking over their bills and making them aware of their service and spending. One customer saved over $150 per month with this new program and looking up the number instead of calling 411. Not everyone was open to the new service and I was only yelled at once – by a man who told me to come back.

I was honest and told people when what they currently had was the best they could afford. I got phone calls thanking me by their families for being so honest. I was the face of customer service in the areas that I oversaw. I held this position over 6 years ago and sometimes will run into someone that I had visited. I was impressed that those I ran into remembered my name and truly cared about my well being. Just recollecting the artist at a Arts Festival in South Miami or a woman at Costco brings me to tears knowing that I made such an impact that they remembered me so long after I had visited them at their homes.

I feel that this is the answer to my life questions. How can I best serve my community? How can I truly make a positive difference?