Do you ever take stock of your life and notice that you are just coasting along? You aren’t challenged in a good way, but stressed with day to day life. You feel like you have no real purpose but to survive. Everyday seems to blur together, and everything is just bland.
This is how I’m feeling right now. I seem to be content and just doing the motions. I was listening to Jim Rohn and Denis Waitley on my way back from the South Beach Triathlon where my son came in 6th in his division for the swim. I also looked at my cousin who 10 years younger than me has traveled the world, has 2 jobs, and owns a home. I listened to him speak and saw that he will go many places because he has purpose and vision.
A year ago I had quit my job to become a Professional Network Marketer. I live at home, pay off all my bills and have savings; but I don’t own a home. I feel like the content part of me is selling me the thought that I am happy with this arrangement. I love my parents and love the proximity of child care, counseling and help; but I think I need to force myself to spread my wings and fly.
My father has given in his notice at work. He wants to retire and focus completely on the stock market. My mom and aunt have closed the travel agency brick and mortar to work from home. I want to support them. I want to know that if they or Keegan and I decide to travel the world, the money is readily available.
I have been working with GMYS to build up their support on their Shop dot com page. Truly looking at my progress I know that I haven’t given my all.
With that said looking back at the past couple years I honestly have to say that I haven’t given my all. I remember when I decided to finish university. I was on a 2 year hiatus with 9 declared majors under my belt and nothing to “show” for it. I went with my dad to St Thomas University to talk to the Monsignor. My parents just wanted me to finish with anything! It was really bad. When I started in the school I had a VERY LOW GPA .94, I had many credits that were just everywhere, and I still wasn’t really sure what I wanted to do.
After talking to an advisor about psychology (3 of my 9 declared majors) I got to talking with the business advisor for Tourism and Hospitality Management. I listened to him and knew that this was The Way for me. Being that my 9 declared majors were mostly in social science, I pretty much had to start over with business. I needed 2 accounting classes, 2 finance classes, 2 economy classes, 2 computer classes, 2 certain math classes and about 9 Tourism and Hospitality classes. I also had to get the requirement classes that didn’t transfer from public university to Catholic university – religion, ethics, history, English. They told me that it would take me a little over 3 years to complete my degree.
When I heard that and took stock of where I was and where I wanted to go, I figured out that I wasn’t going to take 3 years. I started taking 20-21 credits each semester. I took week long concentrated classes and night classes. I finished everything in 2 years exactly and graduated with honors with a 3.39. I was so focused and driven that everything (except finance and economics) was a breeze. During that time even while dating my ex-husband I knew where I wanted to go – GRADUATE FROM UNIVERSITY NOW!
I feel like I’m back where I was before my dad took me to St Thomas University. The feeling of directionless and content; and just like after the meeting with Professor Klein I know where I want to be – finished and accomplished.
Because I started working out again I seem to have more energy. When I blog and post on my Facebook page I remind myself each time that I have purpose. I don’t know what I did to motivate myself to really dig deep, put my head down and just plow forward; but I’m open to let it happen. During that time I didn’t need pictures, goal boards or affirmations to make me push myself, it was just a KNOWING that I was ready.
I remember I was talking with someone who asked me what is holding me back. I thought about it and said “I am a person who can see the castle, but when foraging through the valley I get distracted and turned around.” I told him that I needed someone to help me stay focused and navigate me. He asked an AMAZING question – that took years for me to “get” – “Who says you have to go into the valley?”
A mentor that I had told me that I have the every answer that I will ever need to any predicament I encounter. When I looked puzzled he said I’m just asking the question wrong and learn to play with my questions until I get an answer.
While listening to Jim Rohn he also said something that I needed to hear “No one is coming to save you, so you have to save yourself.” I fully understood this when I was deciding to finish college. I am appreciating this quote now as I decide to accomplish my goals – healthy weight and to be a Positive Influence in my community.
In writing this I feel that this was the force getting all of my body, mind and soul to agree that I want to finish. I KNOW I’m at that same crossroads. My soul is ready and I think my mind and body are starting to agree. I want to be my ideal health and I want to be a successful entrepreneur who helps Build Thriving Communities. I don’t know how to make a viral webpage or video. I don’t always enjoy presenting the plan, getting the sale or sponsoring someone or getting strangers to open up about their goals and dreams. But I do KNOW that it is time and I know what I want. The image/end result is becoming VERY clear in my head and I know I can accomplish it. Just like before enjoy every day because I’m moving towards my “castle”.
Are you a person who can “see the castle”, “the navigator and guide to lead others to the castle”? Are you waiting for someone to partner with you to get to the castle or just afraid to even try to attempt starting the adventurous journey? I have to agree – The only person to save you is yourself and whatever “mistakes” you make just show you more clearly which direction you should be going.
ALL the Best and Best Wishes on your trek to the castle! I know you will feel proud and accomplished when you arrive at the door only to see a bigger, more Amazing castle in the distance!
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